may 7 2009 (journal)
this morning i went to the local health center to get Davids (my son) birth certificate. I found out that it was not ready and so i went to a friends bookstore to look for a DVD that i want to to give as a present to another friend. The shop owner a brother in Christ unfortunately do not have the thing i was looking for, so there were 2 things i went out for that i didnt get the same day. as i was leaving the shop, the owner, shared to me that he is losing sales and is planning to give up this shop. I said “yeah its because of the recession i think”. i said a few more words and left. on the way out, i felt guilty that i didnt say anything more to encourage him or inspire him. i could at least i could have said, “well the Lord is coming thats why these are happening as he said it would in the last days” “we should be glad for that, thats one great reason to hope”. but these words are empty, because they just cross my mind and never came out of my mouth. i apologized to my Lord for the lack of courage or maybe a lack of impulse.
i went to work that day and met my student who was absent the previous week, he said they had to go to Sri Lanka (their country) on a very short notice because a very close relative died. i said to him “sorry about that.” we went on to our class and he cant help talking about her and cry about it, i tried to hush him by telling him story i always used. somehow we moved on but even as he was playing, he cannot stop the tears rolling down on his cheeks. later on i found out that the deceased has been very close to him and his family. the deceased was a woman in her eighties. I didnt know what to say but share to him the realities of life. i dont know for sure how she is doing now, but i told him, God loves us so much. “I dont know her” i said, ” but i know God loves her more than you could have loved her” “God promises us life and happiness with him for eternity and God loves all people and he wants all of us to have that same happiness and eternity in his presence” “im sure God wanted that for your auntie”
i dont know much about talking him into the gospel or to eternal life because he is just 10 but i prayed for him in the end.